In a room full of furniture…I am an accessory that doesn’t get moved much. I am cleaned once in a while. I sit and I am still. The dust settles on me once again. I watch life go in and out in slow motion, unlike the life that is moving quickly by me not stopping to see my colors, the new cracks in me, if I have been polished, and if I should be moved to a better place. I would like to be in the light feeling the warmth on my cold ceramic outer shell. Each day goes by and like a new vase throughout the years soon shines less and less and becomes unnoticed.

Standing up to hug Michael

Dancing with Michael

Going on dates with Michael

Taking my kids to school

Helping out at school

Baking for my family

Going out with my friends

Taking pictures the way I want and not from a wheelchair eye level

Having fun with my kids and sitting on the sidelines in a wheelchair

Typing at a regular speed

Getting up to get something I need

Going to the bathroom when I want

Taking a bath when I want

Walking and not having to be carried everywhere

Organizing the kids rooms

Driving

Swimming

Helping people and not having people have to help me

Getting dressed myself

Going to the bathroom myself

Having dignity

Not feeling well

Not being in pain

Not feeling overwhelmed

Standing up and not having to sit on the couch 16 hours a day feeling like a piece of furniture

Feeling happy and content

Life as it should have been

I know there are a lot of people on this earth because of all the buildings and there is a lot of people where we live so there are more people everywhere.

While going through Martinez at night he sees all the refineries all lit up and telling us how amazing it was that Edison invented the light bulb and there were so many lights to be seen. It was beautifully lit up.. great thought..

Asking about the sun and moon Ryan thought the sun was bigger because it was in the middle of the atmosphere and the moon was farther away.. good thought..

I found this lady who was selling vintage playing cards in a variety of everything imaginable from flowers, to people, mini cards, dragons, and animals. I thought they would be fun to get so Katilin could practice her drawing and have a few fun pictures to try to copy and maybe spark some new ideas to draw. I love the seashell one and the little girl feeding the chicks..

A time of sadness has arrived when the Mountain View Mervyn’s closed it’s doors. Many great friends made for life there as well as both Elizabeth and I met and married our husbands who also worked there at the time. At least we didn’t have our weddings at Mervyn’s in which someone actually did there. I will have to come back to this and write more …

So many good and bad memories here..  great management in the first 5 years of me working there.. the worst management ever in the last 6 years of when I worked there.

So far I have heard that Kohl’s or JcPenney’s may replace Mervyn’s but I am hoping for Old Navy

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Just thought I would point out that Michael is cute… blue eyes.. handsome.. hot.. enough said..

YUP.. even when he is being silly.. still cute..

I will come back to this subject after I finish updating the blog of the last month I have lost.

Aunt Deanna joined us for two days playing games, watching movies, drinking, watching movies, more drinks.. lol.. We had found Ryan’s favorite game of Parcheesi in Lego.. How cool is that?

The perfect picture.. Aunt Deanna had just sent one of Katilin’s guys ‘back’ home to start over and she is comforting Kate while Ryan shares in the ’sadness’ with his laugh.

Ethan brought home this gorgeous narcissus flower in this pretty pot and added a little gingerbread on a popsicle stick. He had carefully wrapped it in a bag and just couldn’t wait to give us this gift he had been caring for at school. He waters it and measures it all the time letting me know how much it has grown in a day or a few days. The difference between these two pictures is just two weeks!!

Thank you E .. love you … xoxo… mommy & daddy

Well, as he measures the flower today it is topping 33 1/2 inches ( 2 feet 9 1/2 inches ) Wowzer